Memories of a Prisoner.

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Memories of a Prisoner.

 

Prison, a time in my life that I want to forget. So why am here now after all of these years? Even though the prison has long since gone…..

I remember the fear when I’d been caught, used as a scape goat while the others got away.  I thought I was hard hanging out with the older boys, doing the dirty work for them just so I could be part of the gang. Then when they got away with all of that money, with me as the look out, I didn’t even know they’d left me. There I was caught red handed with that family tied up in the bedroom terrified, and the kids screaming blue murder.

They never found the rest of them so it was all taken out on me. I didn’t deserve such a harsh sentence but they obviously decided they needed to blame somebody so I would do.

I look around now at this peaceful garden and remember when the innocent looking fences were topped with barbed wire, when the gate was fitted with a huge padlock…..and I didn’t have a key. When the dogs on the other side of the fence weren’t pets but angry vicious enemy’s trained to attack at the slightest sign of an attempted escape.

The alarm sensors that picked up the tiniest steps outside of the perimeter fence, screaming shrilly, alerting all. The times I was awakened in the night, with my heart pounding in my chest as I heard guards shouting…..gunfire popping, cries of anguish, then silence.

As I stand here the memories assaulting me, I notice the left over evidence of times gone by. Bullet holes in the fence. The bare soil where no grass grew, because of the constant trailing backwards and forwards of the guard dogs and their handlers.

Looking at this sad and quiet place a memory of the past that haunts me, I can see us now, myself and the other  inmates huddled in a group in a corner of the prison yard sharing a sneaky cigarette. Always on the alert in case a warden came along.

I remember the patch of grass where the sun always shone, everyone battling to get to it first so they could soak it up and feel the warmth on their skin before being returned to the cold cells, shut in, locked away.

When I was eventually released and free of the confines of this place I swore I’d never go anywhere near again. I even left the county for a while. But then I heard it had been closed down. Rumour had it the guards were as dodgy as the prisoners and there weren’t enough honest ones to keep it open, how ironic is that?

However I knew the only way that I could believe it no longer existed was to see for myself. Now I have, the fear and weight that has always been on my shoulders is already lifting. I can finally push the memories aside sure in the knowledge that I’ll never have to go through that again. Ive been on the straight and narrow ever since and I intend to stay that way.

I turn my back on this outdoor space, now a place of tranquillity but once hiding so much sadness, and walk away.

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20 thoughts on “Memories of a Prisoner.

    1. Hi Ann, I’m glad you liked it. I haven’t done much fictional writing so it’s good to get some positive feedback.

  1. This is such a believable snapshot into someone’s life – I wouldn’t have known it wasn’t your own if you hadn’t posted it being fictional. I feel like I delved into someone’s journal and saw them trying to work out their flawed history on the pages, to come to terms with it once and for all in order to move forward. Captivating writing!

    1. Thanks so much Kirstie, it was a bit nerve racking as I’m not used to writing fiction.

  2. This was interesting, i actually read this twice to analyze. I think its great to practice writing this way, I wish people did this more often.

    1. Thanks very much Paige, I’m glad you found it interesting. I worked in a young offenders prison for a while so have some knowledge.

    1. Thank you Carola. I didn’t know what to expect as its my first piece of fictional writing.

  3. I have to admit, I didn’t realize this was fiction! This is my first time here so I didn’t know what to expect. Wow, you truly nailed this voice. Beautiful.

    1. Thank you so much Taslim, I think the fact that I’d worked in a young offenders prison helped.

    1. Callie thank you I love being descriptive in my writing even though this is my first fictional piece I tend to write descriptively anyway.

  4. Great writing. I first thought it was the first chapter of a memoir. I like all the details.

  5. a very powerful piece of writing, that really catches the mood of the moment and allows the reader to empathise with the main character… thank you

    1. Thanks Amanda, I didn’t really know what to expect from people once I had published it. It’s encouraged me to write more fiction.

  6. You definitely write well. I think as a memory leading to a bigger story this is good. As a stand alone it’s short on action and more tells what happened than shows what’s going on. I’d love the rest of the story including what led up to the heist, what your friends were like and why you agreed to participate in the crime. Great writing though, and very believable.

    1. Thanks very much for your comments. Sombody else said similar and I’m wondering if I can write more about the lad in it.

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